Happy New Year

I know that it’s been forever since I’ve done a write-up, but the end of 2013 has been extremely crazy for me! It’s so hard to put into words what 2013 has meant to me.  2013 has been a whirlwind- full of lessons, opportunities, laughter, and love. It’s not to say that I didn’t have my embarrassing moments or have made mistakes and missed opportunities that I wish would’ve gone differently, but I wouldn’t change or trade anything that has happened this year (or any year for that matter). If you ever asked me if there’s anything that I regret, I would tell you that I can’t think of one thing that I regret happening to me or doing because through every life lesson, every missed opportunity, and every mistake, I’ve grown extraordinarily from it.

2013 has been especially generous to me. I’ve been fortunate enough to see Lady Antebellum, The Eli Young Band (TWICE in one year), Maroon 5 and Kelly Clarkson in concert. I’ve been fortunate enough to see Texas beat OU, in what might possibly be my last Red River Rivalry game (36-20 FOREVER). I’ve been fortunate enough to see the Longhorns won their last home game against Texas Tech, even though they disappointed in the Alamo Bowl. I’ve been fortunate enough to see Mack Brown coach his entire career with the Longhorns during last 15 years with my favorite team and was inspired by the way he always coached with dignity and class. Even though this has been a disappointing year for my sports teams, seeing as how they’ve gotten really far but have stopped a little short of their goals, I’m extremely proud of watching the Spurs make it to the Finals and defied the odds when everyone said that they wouldn’t make it out of the second round. I’ve been fortunate enough to see them battle against Miami with 50,000 of my closest Spurs fans. I’ve gotten lucky enough to be selected to be apart of the Sprite Fan Tunnel to high-five the players as they came running out of the tunnel. I definitely squealed with delight when Tony Parker, one of my all-time favorite players, answered a question that I asked him. I’ve been fortunate enough to be able to go to Spurs games and Longhorn games, semi-formals, concerts, summer trips to the beach, and attending a cornucopia of dinners with my best friends after coming back from a long few months at school.

I’ve learned that it’s perfectly okay to laugh at yourself when things don’t always go exactly the way you’ve planned them to go. I’ve learned that you can’t always get what you want, and that’s not always necessarily a bad thing. I’ve learned that sometimes people will disappoint you, but you have to get right back up and realize that deep down, they’ve always been the same person you’ve known forever. I’ve learned that it’s okay to hate the idea of change, but sometimes, change is exactly what you need. I’ve learned that as much as you’ve had a dream for people to turn out the way you’ve always dreamed of them turning out to be, that they will follow their own paths and sometimes, being supportive is all you can do. I’ve learned that as much as I hate my job sometimes, that I’m incredibly lucky to have a job that allows me to pay off student loans when other people are struggling to find one to support a family. I’ve learned that even though I was extremely hesitant to grow a year older, that I take for grated how amazing my life is because some people don’t even live to be another year older. More than anything, the greatest lesson that I’ve learned this year is that things have a way of working things out for itself and that God definitely places the teeniest-tiniest moments in your life that turn out to be significant events in your life.

I don’t like to say that I have “resolutions” for the new year, because, quite frankly, within a week of making them, I forget ever making them in the first place. Resolutions shouldn’t just be a commitment that you renew every time January 1st rolls around. I am making it a point to try to be all that I can be for God, myself, friends, family, and for the strangers who’s lives that I hope to impact. I want to be a better student and become better at allowing myself to focus on my schoolwork instead of letting little things come into the way of getting into nursing school. I want to be a more understanding friend, sister, and daughter. Ultimately, I want to be somebody that people can be proud of – somebody that people would be proud to call their best friend, girlfriend, sister, and daughter.

I ended 2013 by celebrating my birthday yesterday. I’d like to say that with every birthday, you receive a great wealth of knowledge; that you’re smarter and wiser than you were the day before you entered a new year, but the only things that you carry over with you are the things you’ve learned and the people that have shaped that past year for you. It’s definitely hard having some of your best friends spread out all over the country, and I know that I’ve haven’t exactly been the best example of what a best friend should be lately. I’m definitely guilty of letting the small stuff, like school, get in the way of making new friends (and keeping them), and it’s allowed some of my friendships go to places that I don’t want them to be. I can’t tell you how thankful I am for the new friends that have come into my life this year, and I’m also insanely grateful for the incredible group of best friends that have never been anything less than there for me over the past twelve months and have been so supportive in being there through the highs and lows. I love y’all so much. You know who you are. 

So cheers, to the New Year. I hope that this year is everything you’d ever want it to be.

xoxo,

lifeisabeautifulstruggle